Monday, July 04, 2005
...i'm not good at this...but i'll try...
dear sen...remembered the times wen we were nearly separated by those stupid stuffs... i'm glad we wen thru it..coz now i know.. 'this' will stand thru the tests of time...i'm glad..it happened... i know u did too....thks fer being there... thru sadness..happiness.. rich n poor..thru it all...nonsense n no-nonsense..jus everythin.. thks fer everythin.. now i know...it does deserve..d awal n akhir..as one..now n forever...ur wish fer ur birthday?? u know its hard fer me.. but i'll try.. continue d encouragements will yer??..ai shi teru...
..been feelin kinda down latelt..it all started on friday...n saturday was pretty bad too... it didnt help that Sen had to go out wif his frens... neway..i wanted him to go...i jus need time alone... to talk.. to think... thru 'her'... i learnt another side of 'him' which none of us experienced... she's so lucky... but so sad that all the happines was shortlived... i know 'he' was worried about 'her'.... d first thing that came out from 'his' mouth was "where is 'she'?" ... i'm so sorry this had to happened... my childhood days... i did manage to experience 'his' generousity...
i was 9... most of my frens had a radio receiver.. Papa was against buying me d radio receiver.. he find that theres not a need too... i told 'him'... d next day 'he' gave me one of 'his' expensive Sony walkman...lucky aint i?..'he' always 'protected' me from any bad happenings in my life.... fights..arguements quarrels.. 'he' helped me... 'he' debated wif Papa about exposing me to the nitelife @ d age of 15...well..Papa relented...but wif both Papa n Mama in tow...my canvas of life... has 'his' imprints on it... n i'm so sad that i was so blind to notice till someone had to actually knocked some sense into me to make me realise the things that he had done...but till now... i wont forget this... 'he' missed my nikah...coz a lame stupid reason....'he' had an adik angkat chalet.. i was disappointed... tried to get him to stay..gave him lots of reasons but still...he refused...was so sad...but wat could i do...jus continued..
...but now... all i hope for is..'he'll' be safe...n stay healthy...n dat this will be his 'last'...unless its not meant to b...if its not...i shall make trips to visit him...'he' is after all...one of my close relative i had...a senior...who had gone astray... i'll miss u...CD..
ariessen @ 10:14 PM
//married to Sen//luvs Mama Nana Dada n Papa//sits on TJ n Shad//life revolves ard family//dependent on mum n i dun care wat other ppl would said//iMan n ayubee// prefers flats n pumps//njoyin life wif my love ones now//
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